Keeping Motivated

I'm in the last 6 weeks before the big day and its becoming difficult to keep motivated. I know that we all go through cycles and about 6 weeks ago I found myself in a similar slump. This past year and more specifically the last 6 months have been extremely difficult, both physically and emotionally. Its hard to keep the momentum and stay on track in regards to diet and exercise. I do sacrifice a lot and I know that the rewards are great, but it is so hard to stay on track week in and week out. I do get my "cheat" meals, but as I get closer the cheat meals don't seem worth it...so I get irritable and frustrated, especially when I don't see major muscle gain or fat loss.

I am definitely on the smaller side and so I'm preparing myself to not get my hopes up high when it comes to the competition. I'm really looking at this as a learning experience and really when it comes to whether or not I've "won" anything...I really do feel like a winner in that I'm in the best shape of MY life.

I do get doubtful and self conscious, I think that's normal and I admit that each day is like playing mental games, some days I feel great, other days, I feel flat (that's what we say when our muscles look small) I'm leaning out quickly, so I feel lanky, I was expecting to see more muscle definition and I'm very small.

I'm working out with Blythe both Wednesday and Thursday of this week. Then I'm headed to the beach for some R&R and down time with the Foley Family. I think that will be good for me. Its going to be hard because my nutrition is so strict right now and I cannot allow for any slip ups; but I think that the time away will help me regain focus!

I usually feel better after my workouts with Blythe, when I hit it hard, I feel rejuvinated and motivated. I just need that kick in the butt! This is hands down the hardest thing I've ever done in my life!